Walla Walla

Gray grows out of the morning
Waiting for a brightness
That never quite arrives -
    and the sky gives itself
    to the ground -
    though not entirely.
Billeted shapes of gray and shadow
Against a backdrop that could be white
Hiding the colors in between
Never seeing the rain fall
Just the feel of wet air.

Falling Down

Close your eyes, spinning wildly
Let the little girl live again
Laying on the grass, trying to hold on
As the world tilts out of control

Watching angels dance in the clouds
All the worry pushed away
And that contagious smile
Brighter than the sun shining down

The world slows to a stop
As you feel pressed to the earth
Fitted just for you
To watch the angels dance

Today

I can see forever in your eyes
But I can't see tomorrow
Through yesterday's tears
or - tell you what forever feels like
When I only have today

Waiting patiently to see
How long this day will last
Learning compassion and frustration
Twin sisters of love
The only guides

A mirror to your soul
Sparkles and shines
Reflections of my own feelings

Today is my forever

Last New York

Stepping out of the subway
Feeling a giant weight lifted
Eyes glance up
Into a blurring whirl of sky

Thanking God and
Cursing him in the same breath

That things can be both right and wrong
Continuing to grow and learn
That life is less important
And the greatest gift

Conflicting conclusions
To the same truth
Vibrant and real
Inconsequential and dull

Small voices change nothing
While influencing everything

Untouchable

Firefly flickers of light
Reflections from the other side
Dreams dancing with reality
Celluloid images of the heart
Memory the only reason to watch
Unblinking images in transitory state
Nights in a plate glass prison
Cold glass against forehead
Images fog with the breath
Of whispered kisses
Floating through the darkness
With no destination
Other than nearer and further

Last Words

There were those last words
Needing to neither be said nor heard
A wrenching, conniving phrase
That says no more than
I am angry, lost and hurt
I don't know what else to say

Unsaved

I didn't realize you needed rescuing
I couldn't save myself
Trading down feelings
Finally suppressed
I looked out into bright eyes
And acted sane, semi-normal
Standing in the rain
Feelings like smoke and air
Inside the wind tunnel of my soul
Never seeing the hurt
As you hung tentatively to love
I could only point to someday
Something better - another time
Clinging to the chill of my soul
I almost felt you drift away

Unapologetic

Two punch apology
It was my fault anyway
I'm sorry, I can't take the blame
For the way you feel
Sorry it came to this

Its hard to win
When you would rather lose
Harder still to give in
To make apologies
Sound real

Always amending your words
After sorry
Like it was my fault anyway
Two punch apology
Sounds apologetic, but its not

WIld Hair

That frock of hair
Untamed by intent or desire
Going every direction
Curled around a finger
Unbound - uncontrollable
Fidgeting and nervous
Rolling it tight again
Cutting off circulation
Subconscience feeling life
That comes in a moment of waiting